1/7/2018
At the end of the year, we lost someone special in our lives and since then, the days have felt heavy and hard. But today is the first 7 in the year of 2018 and since that is my number… I needed to stop carrying the shadow of grief and take stock of where I have been, where I am today and where I am going in the future.
That being said…let us begin!
As we leave 2017 and enter 2018, I am amazed at how much emotional luggage is still trying to tag-a-long in between the clusters of confetti of the New Year; but before I take another step, I’m going to do myself a favor. I’m going to turn around, recognize what the emotional luggage is about and then grab a broom, sweep it away–slam the door closed and wipe my hands. It has no place or power in this year and I recommend grabbing a metaphorical broom and doing the same for yourself, before another 24 hours goes by.
If it is a job that no longer fulfils or fits who you think you are or want to become…resolve to find another way to make a living to feed your body and soul.
If it is a lifestyle, which no longer suits who you are or who you wish to become…find another location, habitat or hobby that inspires you and reflects the true you.
If it is a person who no longer fulfils or fits your life…bless them for their part in your evolution and let them go, so that you can both reinvent yourselves.
If it is who you are on the outside or inside that makes you uneasy…envision a new you and then devise a process by which you can encourage the positivity you seek to become your reality and then, project that positivity through joyful affirmations and genuine forgiveness.
If it is something we thought, we could accomplish and didn’t…first define whether the goal was any of the following:
- Realistic
- Achievable
- Time appropriate for all parties involved.
- Or, whether we had we thought through the process well enough– planning for alternative outcomes, other than whatever we prayed the universe would do—with or without any internal effort or investment?
If we can answer truthfully that the effort was worthy, achievable, time appropriate and that we had soulfully worked together towards a successful outcome…then perhaps, success has been delayed for some other reason. Perhaps for a distinct timing we have yet to understand…divine timing…God’s timing. Perhaps in our myopic vision, we cannot see that certain people or positions are not yet in place, or ready and prepared to handle the successful outcome the universe has prepared for them. Perhaps even you are not ready for the success it may bring you, because you have naively caged this success in a box, too small for what it needs to blossom. Perhaps we have prevented spirit and the universe to take the lead and are too frightened to simply follow in awe and openness, allowing spirit to reset the process and move things forward.
So, even though most of us just finsihed celebrating the holidays…we need to recognize how much work they were and may need to take a vacation. Maybe both physically and mentally we need to walk away from the intensity of our desires and wishes and refocus on something differrent than last year’s obsessions. We need to readjust our intentions and believe that the universe has our highest good in mind and let things go, because when we are sufficiently distracted and able to emotionally let control of the outcome…we are finally free to see a thing for what it is… people for who they are… the help and time they offered, as the gifts they always were. Here is where we can appreciate the bird’s-eye view of spirit; where we can morre easily recognize the pressures we have unfairly placed upon ourselves and one another, in order to achieve some preconceived outcome we determined. Not God…but us. We focussed inward on our lack–not outward on our wealth of opportunity and authenticity.
In other words; amidst the drought of our dreams, we prayed for rain, but forgot to dig the ditches to control the overflow such a bountiful rainfall could provide. ‘Dig the ditches baby, and the rain will come!’ Talk the talk–walk the walk and build the dams to hold and redirect the overflow of rain the sky will provide, when you are finally prepared and not just frozen in chaotic anticipation.
We forget that though we are part of the God spark—we are not God and so, as humans are constantly concentrating on our perceived limited ability to affect and alter all the infinite obstacles or opportunities, we think are the only options left available for our solutions. Somehow over the course of 2017, we forget to trust and when we forget to trust, we reduce ourselves to frustration and misdirected anger. We emotionally beated ourselves up and then turned our anger outwards towards others—blaming them for our lack, or perceived lack.
If you’ve done that this past year, that’s why you need to look back at 2017 with a clear eye—return the emotional baggage and need for outside validation to the closet of the past from whence it came and sweep away any hurtful words or thoughts it begot, before you burn those precious bridges you are going to one day wish still stand strong, when huge leaps of faith will be required of you. So, face the future with courage and get out there and dig the ditches for the rain of success you know the universe is holding for you! The year 2018 has 5 eclipses this year and your destiny is calling! The supermoon has passed and cleared the way for real change.
True, the universe is not always going to give you what you want, but it will always give you what you need so, use this time wisely. Walk slowly away from the door of the past and then stand still for moment to take in the new view. The New Year waits for you to fill it with new things, new visions, new experiences and desires so, take the time to carefully consider how you want to fill this new space…this new chapter in your life and who you intend to bring with you on this journey. Figuure that out, then grab your tools and get to work!
Dig the ditches first so, you can channel the rains of success to where it best suits the seeds of your efforts. Too much success/rain on tiny seeds without proper preparations drowns them and prevents their growth. Channeling rains through planned and prepared ditches and conduits, allows the rain to slowly soak in and nourish as it falls, promoting healthy and steady growth. That leads to a bountiful crop and a successful harvest!
The year of 2017 has been a roller coaster of adventures with some very high notes, some very frustrating notes—some awkward and exciting beginnings and some sadly anticipated and unavoidable endings. And even though endings are not always pleasant, they are necessary to make room for the new, so be kind in your departures and do right by others as you walk away. Set them free with kindness and good intentions to find their own new path and in turn—you will be led to yours. Too many people get lost in the obligations of long or indifferent goodbyes and relive emotional or imaginary ties, refusing to let things die a natural death—so be clear and kind in your wake.
So, here we are, saying goodbye to another year—closing one door and looking for the fresh crack in the opposing window to start anew. Change is not only necessary and inevitable, but well deserved this month so, breathe in the fresh air and fill your lungs with heady possibility. We have earned the right to change things in our lives; people, places, projects, perspectives and perceptions. Let us begin to redefine who we wish to be in this coming year and grab the proper tools and partners who will help us dig the ditches and prepare for success.
Things that attracted us last year, may no longer be appealing to us this year—don’t apologize—move on! People who inspired us, did so and then faded away from where and when the inspiration was needed and that is a good thing. Be grateful and let them go! Get out there…stand in the new light… breathe in the fresh air and open your eyes to the new and the different. 2017 was a 10 year—10 being the alpha and the omega—the beginning and the end… Or maybe, just the beginning of the end. More than anything else, it is done, gone and good riddance! Bless it for what it was; an evolutionary process. Take what was good, commit it to memory and best practices and toss out the rest!
Hello, 2018…an 11 year! A master number…a new life path! Let this year be the year you take care of you and yours…but remember, take care of you first. We serve others best, when first we are whole. As for me? No apologies or apprehensions anymore. Life is too damn short and I’ve decided, I’m going rogue. This is my 60th year and now is my time to do, to be, to explore and to carve and follow my own path simultaneously. Those coming along for the ride, should hold on tight and enjoy the wind in your hair and the tug on our sails…those trying to hold back such an adventure …hop off the boat now and take your luggage of negativity with you!
The book, LORDS OF THE HARVEST: A TRUE CRIME INVESTIGATIVE MEMOIR is fianlly complete. It stands without apology, as an apocryphal testament to my best intentions…each article of research contributed by others, each interview chronicled along the way, each piece of evidence discovered, each plausible set of deductions made, and/or corroborations vetted, has added to its value as a substantive document—a critical receptacle for evidence that law enforcement or amatuer alike, can freely access. This book is for them and the victims they’re still working for. This book has also been updated through December 2017 to include the latest nuggets of investigative information, quantifiably necessary to help provide additional guidance to all agenciees involved –each detail codified, properly cited and supported by additional expert confirmation.
Though a bit late in the year for a final submission, this should be the final update. For me, it’s time to move on and dig new ditches. The truth is now becoming more and more clear to those who are willing to do the homework, that these 4 men navigated these serial killings for over 4 decades without discovery, because the justice system held such gaping holes, the evidence and the obvious connections to them easily fell through the cracks. Jurisdictions and agencies held back information then, as they do now, and it is this lack of reciprocity and crosspollinated respect that cultivates such an endless and damning proprietory need to claim ownership of information and outcome that keeps these killers free from the national disregard they deserve.
These men and these cases are not only connected, but can and should be processed now as a collective. Unfortunately, this also brings certain governmental programs into a very unflattering historical light. Nonetheless, the shadows of governmental protection; be they federal, state and/or local should not be allowed to persist and those whose manipulations of facts and evidence can be vetted, should be found guilty of the crimes committed and prosecuted accordingly. As always, each independent expert confirmation of specific details in the book; especially those compiled in November and December of 2017 about the connective elements of MK ULTRA and the signature links between the patterned evidence and MO’s between the Chicago, Boston and California cases, brought further support to the propositions of book and added to the validity of the collective effort to shine new light on these cases, as well as those already highlighted in Colorado, Maine, Michigan and Georgia.
As stated from the beginning; evidence always leads us to the truth and only those who consume the book in its totality, will truly benefit from it’s contents. In other words; there is a reason the book is as large and detailed as it is. It isn’t a comic book…it’s a real book, that contains information on over 100 cases and in order to do that properly-that requires a commitment of intellectual resources by both author and reader, alike. It’s also a memoir, which makes you privy to my life and the victims I have connected with. It is not for everybody and I’m good with that, because its not meant to be for everybody. It’s meant for the victims and the heroes still trying to find them and/or solve their cases.
The people who understand why this book was written and for whom this book was written, will be the ones who understand what has been done this day and see the merit of its existence. The mosaic of murder that has plagued this nation for generations, could not have been condensed and simplified for the Twitter-verse crowd, who process only soundbite sub-labels. The readers who understand this is for the victims and for law enforcement, have already begun their own journey of discovery and investigation into these cases and will be able to digest the evidence without taking insult or umbrage with the literary affect of its delivery. These readers will appreciate the hours of research, the moments of doubt and discovery and be able to trace the connective tissues of the killers’ sociopathic ideology and be able to apply their mantra’s to their methods and by token, their attraction to the victimology of each case.
I trust that 2018 will eventually find other investigators learning about this book and reading it for the information they need. Perhaps avid readers will hear about its findings and purchase it for the thrill of the ride, or true crime readers for the unvarnished approach to spherical thinking and real-time/grass root investigations. To those who understand that the dead have a vested interest in their own closure…I applaud your openness to my process and the willingness to contemplate that the veil is not meant to be the final word. For others who take umbrage with what they do not understand…concentrate on the end product of direct and patterened evidence presented, and may 2018 find you blessed.
For me?
Like I said in the beginning…it’s the first 7 of the year. In angel numbers, 7 means I’m on the right path and the outcome will excede my wildest expectations. Those of you who know me, already know how much I expect of myself and the universe at large, so I’ve gotta get ready! Rumor has it, its gonna rain tomorrow and I want to get a head start on digging my ditches today!!
Claim your success in 2018!
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